i'm the last to blog. oh-so-enthusiastic-me lor. haha!

busybusybusy mah! but after reading ur posts, i'm guilty. of claiming to be busybee, when in fact others have to cope with BOTH work & exams.

AS YOU KNOW. AND IF YOU HAVENT KNOW. projection on 5oct was a hell mess. the fonts look like crap. the slides couldnt project. the video cannot play. my lappy decided to be cranky. so all in all, i had a couple of concerned faces after service, asking me "What happened today?" imagine. just how lousy i felt...

reason being. i was late. and jon.w wanted to play this welcome video. and i was late. and so we had to try the sound and video in <15mins b4 the ushers open door for service. i was late. my lappy cldnt detect the cable. i was late. so i had to project the slides from the church lappy. my fonts went haywire. i was late.

i was in a frenzy. and so my heart was not prepared to worship & serve that day. animation was messy. i couldnt focus. WE ALL HAVE OUR BAD DAYS hurh.

you stayed up late to do the slides. make sure everything is perfect. the fonts are nice. the animations and backgrounds complement the songs all so well. you enter church with heart racing. eager to see your efforts on screen. and then, POOM! this worship leader decided to sing another song. the chairman wants to play that video. the speaker wants to you to edit his slides. the comp's giving you problems. and you thought, everything was suppose to run according to what you've plannned! everything should run perfect. at least, on your part.

we all learn. i learnt. that everything will not run perfect. if my heart is not right in the 1st place. i stayed up late to look for the nicest slides. woke up early in the morning to do animations and hyerlinks. very tired. is that how it should be?

rush to church. my heart not prepared. is that how it should be?

busy projecting slides. making sure it looks nice on screen. do last minute editing to perfect slides. didnt pray. didnt join the worship team in prayer. is that how it should be?

ushers open the door. congregation flocks in. still busy. doing welcome slides. writing slide no.s on song paper. is that how it should be?

more often than not, we blame worship leaders for their last minute as-the-holy-spirit-leads changes. we blame them for disrupting the flow. the plan. shock us. is that how we should feel?

remind me. cos' i 4got how it feels like. to freely worship God without worrying bout' how the slides will run or if worship leaders might change to a song that we didnt prepare.

remind me. cos' a projectionist's primary role afterall, is to project slides. allow the congregation to sing along to the songs.

remind me. i'm serving God, not slides :)

xoxo, liwen